I THINK I HAVE FIGURED OUT THIS ANXIETY THING.

( Long, navel-gazing post about stress, work suckiness, and crazybrain. )

The only downside to quitting my old job (care work) is that my new job (retail assistant for a charity store) doesn't exactly encourage regular sleep hours ( Read more... )

"USE YOUR LIVEJOURNAL."

I suppose I can't really argue with Emma, seeing as it's been over five months since I've posted anything.

Bloody hell.

Since I last wrote, I've:

- Graduated.
- Shaken Patrick Stuart by the hand.
- Fallen out with my brother.
- Made up with my brother.
- Had kilerkki over to visit ( Read more... )

It is a universal irony that the point in which you realize there is absolutely no way you're getting to sleep and so you may as well stay up for the rest of the night -- is the point when every microgram of exhaustion hits you in the hindbrain like a shovel. But by that point, it's too late to sleep ( Read more... )

When you're forced to get up at the asscrack of dawn for your job, you can't help hoping that you're actually going to do something useful. Today? Not so much.

FIRST CLIENT OF THE DAY: Sorry, another carer's already been. Cheers anyway, though.

SECOND CLIENT OF THE DAY: *halfway to spitting* My wife has dementia. We only have the one carer in, ( Read more... )

I finally started that butch blog I was talking about. Well, actually it was going to be a joint butch/femme blog with JB, but after the whole breaking up thing... Yeah. Anyway, she's started her own blog, too, so now we have mirror blogs! Which is TOTALLY COOLER. Mine is still in the fledgling stages, so I'm still messing around with coding and ( Read more... )

ANOTHER GOOD THING THAT HAPPENED TODAY ( Read more... )

Yesterday was an arse day. And I mean that in every sense of the word.

( Cut for graphic, TMI description of work-squick. )

Favourite moment of today:

ELDERLY CLIENT: You're late.
OUR HERO: Ack, yes, I know. I'm really sorry. I haven't done this round before and I got lost twice--
ELDERLY CLIENT: *eyeballs* Why did they send a manOUR HERO: Actually, I'm a woman ( Read more... )

Life lesson of the day: Macaroni and cheese is not in any way improved by adding sour cream. It makes the cheese kind of... mucus-y.

Though the tomato chunks were good.

Also today, I had a work shift that wasn't insane! I even caught a break halfway through. Like, actual time to sit down and drink coffee. It was magnificent ( Read more... )